As Gay as it sounds

I want to fall in love.. Like fer real.. It's been ferever... I want to love someone as much as they love me.. And just be stoked about it... I haven't been stoked on someone for a long time... I miss it.. I want it... Granted I won't be looking for it.. All I'm saying is that I hope it happens.. Like fer real happens... You know.. The I'd do anything for love - meatloaf type deal... I'm being optamistic right now because I like the way it makes me feel... But knowing me I'll make myself sick at the thought of commitment.. So right now.. Bring it.. I'll work on not shutting myself off of the idea... Yeah.. I party