waking up bruised

it seemed dead today.. but piercings flowed in and went smooth... I still love piercing... I had some cravings.. but I easily crushed them with the fear of how gross it makes me feel thinking about sugar now... I got in a fight with ice today.. wrecked the old bike twice.. on the same side.. my hip and elbow will be bruised... my wrist is a little swollen.. bike is fine... remember.. I can't go fast like I can when it's dry... tomorrow is party night.. I am interested in meeting these people for real.. I need a push.. a har push to be that person I was when I worked out all the time.. I am doing the best myself.. but a little unity helps a person grow stronger

mega fail day 5

so.. day five was so hard and so bad... I didn't leave my bed till 4 and then went to work.. was hungry the whole day and didn't have shit for energy.. so I gave up and ate.. the cleans is a bad news if you push yourself.. i think that this is something you do when you chill... not exercise at all... just cleans... maybe do yoga and meditate.. but I couldn't even lift my bike today... I can't live with no energy and I ate.. so what.. 5 days

day 4 is finally over

I worked out too much on this cleanse maybe... I rode my bike 7 miles today... did a 5 min row to 1000 m on the row machine... 15 pull ups... 30 dead lifts #135 and then 100 sit ups... I napped a bunch today.. meaning I fell asleep a lot... I had no energy.. not even any bursts.. I was just tired and wanted to sleep.. I couldn't chug all the SWF this morning... it made my stomach hurt.. it was too small to take it... and I kept sneezing and spitting out lougies... my nose was runny when I woke up but now it's fine... I weighed myself yesterday and I was 227... but today I was over 230.. I think the scales at the gym are set to be heavier so people will work out more cuz i can already tell I am losing weight... I'm not going to work out tomorrow unless I feel like I have energy.. I rented 4 movies and plan to watch then and lay around before work... it's getting hard not to want to eat... I think working out as hard as I have was a bad idea.,... it's just making me hungry... if I just did the cleans I am sure I would be fine... I can't wait till paleo... I want meat so bad... 6 more days

movie day ... three

day 3... the flush wasn't as gross... everything seemed good.. went to the gym 50 squats 45#... 50 hang cleans 65#... 100 crunches... 10 quick bench press 135# then sauna and pool... couldn't hang in the sauna too long.. made me sick... I was tired all day... I would have quick bursts of energy then burn out.... it sucked riding my bike today... did 10 miles today.. week as fuck... I'm not tired at the moment but I am going to sleep deeply... I've been falling asleep early every night but I think it's because wake up at 10 am eryday.... the bad thing about today... and i feel good about it... is that I went to see two movies... bruno and harry potter... both gay... but there is a BBQ place across the street from the theater.. the smell of the meats and the popcorn.. fuck.. i was losing my shit... but I didn't fail.. rad... I just suggest not to go to the theater while doing the master cleanse... oh and don't go see bruno or harry potter... I think I'm so hungry that if I squeez my fat I can taste food... like the old pizza and hot dogs...