Don't let the darkness eat you up

I strive to be

2011-05-08T12:07:00.000-07:00

Happy Mothers Day right? without going into a rant, I think of what a mother is, and regardless of selfishness there is a role that must be played... a long with the child and the father, and other family members... there is a role... that role was never met in my life... not that I had some kind of expectations, half my life I never knew what those were... it was just there was things that happened that never made me feel good... made me feel worse than what I was... that I was the one that was wrong, I was the one that wasn't good enough... I was led to believe most of that stuff, no matter how hard I tried, I failed to the point I didn't try for you... Some say I am Narcissistic maybe I am, maybe because I was never validated, or good enough.... I found myself looking for that in relationships I was in... they never worked... I find that now that I am older I need this less and less and that I am the only one that makes me feel good... except one thing... I am so disappointed in my own Mother that I can not call her today.... I have been thinking about it all day and have been severely bummed out... that I realized all my life I have been doing everything she did not want me to... I don't mean getting tattooed or pierced... I mean succeeding... My mother always wanted me to be always less than what she wanted just so I would always strive to want her attention, strive for HER validation... I can't call her because I don't care about what she wants... what she wants isn't real, its no one... no one can be that and it really bums me out that a person lives that way... I on the other hand am going to be happy today because I understand who I am, my strengths and weaknesses... I strive to be better everyday... and the days I don't, because I am tired or stressed... want to goof off or just want to slack... I don't beat myself up about it... I still feel like I am growing, learning and changing... I feel every aspect of life and I love even the bad stuff, cuz it makes me know the difference and I appreciate the good even more... so with that... I want to thank the people in my life, that may never even read this... you people are my rock.. I rely on you more than I could ever let you know.... Nathan Burch aka Lazer, you are my best friend... Mike Scalise, you were my father even when you didn't have to be.... Nick Wolak, thanks for giving me a greater opportunity when I didn't see one... Jen and Ab Rees, you selflessly helped me, took me in your home and really helped me at the time I needed it most, you are amazing people... Jen Beck and Jon Green, you are truly friends I value here, it means a lot to me what you guys have given to me... Josh Howard, you never wrote me off and valued my friendship like I valued yours (G.F.F.G)... Forrest Norby, you are still one of the only people I talk to in Montana, I hope we still talk even when we are old, and I can't wait to see you this summer.... Titjana Dukker, no matter how much of a brat you are, you have a huge heart and I'm glad we are friends, but really, you are a brat... Anthony Pagono, I will always be bigger than you, but you will always be epic beyond your own understanding, I hope one day the air quality will be better than where you are now...Eduardo Chavarria, you have been like a brother to me, no matter how far apart we are, you know where I'm at... John Johnson, I have never heard you say one bad thing about anyone, and I wish I could be more like you in that sense... last but not least, my older brother Jeremiah Berry, I don;t understand you, you don;t understand me, but you know we are brothers, and no matter what we will be there for each other... I really value what we have even though it doesn't seem much... you people mean a lot to me, and I think about each of you when I am down and even though I don't call and tell you... Thank you for letting me be me and thank you for giving me your friendship and love... I love you

a new leaf, a change of heart, not on my birthday

2011-03-15T21:52:00.000-07:00

I let go and move on fairly easy I think. I have cut ties and forgotten pasts and forced myself away from everyone. There are ups and downs to this, all pros and cons, but there is one thing I can't get over. I was not the only one laid to waste in this wreckage. I think I'm the only one that isn't over it. I want to find out why!

There is power in admittance

2011-02-10T23:25:00.001-08:00

Every night before I fall asleep, I look up from my bed and think, this is when I die

Sarvas

A servey I just filled out

2011-02-03T22:19:00.001-08:00

1. How did you first get interested in/involved in body modification?

My brother got his first tattoo when he was 16, it was an eight ball on his calf, about the size of a 50 cent piece. that was when that shit was hot, * balls on anything you found at the mall, I thought it was stupid. My sister got her first tattoo when she was 16, I can't even remember what it was. something horrible because all my sisters tattoos suck, most of them she got from sleeping with the artist. I hated tattoos never wanted them. I use to pierce myself to freak people out, mostly my septum and put a safety pin in it to make it look gross. When I was 18 I got my nipples pierced on my birthday. Being in Montana that was way extreme, so I did it. That is what got me started hanging out in a tattoo shop. I got my first tattoo at 19, and more piercings. By the time I was 20 I wanted to work in a tattoo shop, haven't really left sense.

2. What are your thoughts on what “body modification” actually means?

Body Modification is exactly what it is. Losing weight is modifying your body, especially gastric bypass surgery, liposuction, basically any plastic surgery, is a body modification. Removing hair or skin pigments and blemishes are body modifications. More people in this country look at body modifications as an negative thing just attached to tattoos and piercings, but if you got your daughter a nose job because the bridge of her nose made it hook and she wasn't suitable to find a husband at an young age, that's body modification. Hate to break it to you America, but even when you get morbidly obese, you modified your body out of it's natural state.

3. What is your place/position in the body modification world? ie artist, collector, etc. Please explain

I am a Body Piercer and a member of the Association of Professional Piercers. The APP is a non profit organization that holds high standard of what the piercing industry should be like, with safety, legislation and education. I wouldn't say I'm a tattoo collector because I'm way too picky about who tattoos me.

4. Why is body modification important to you?

Body Modification isn't that important to me, Piercing is, but like I said before, the term is a lot broader than people let in. As for tattoo and piercings, I love it. I think being heavily tattooed should still be an underground taboo thing. I didn't get into this because I wanted to fin into society, I got into it because I fit in outside of societies standards. When people want being tattooed to be something that is good and cool bums me out. This is my lifestyle, why are the people that shunned me before trying to take it over, don't try and change it now because you want it to be ok.

5. What is the WORST negative response you’ve received in regard to your modifications?
Every day of my life I get a bad response, I've gotten, "Gross" or "Faggot" or "what is wrong with you" I've heard it all. I don't really care about that stuff, it just makes me know I am not a part of them and they aren't a part of me, I am happy the way I live and those people will never feel free because they are confined by rules.

6. What do you have to say to people who look at modification and don’t understand it/judge it unfairly/don’t recognize its importance/say it’s “disgusting” and “pointless?”

A simple thing such as ear lobe stretching has been going on longer than their precious Jesus has been a character of the best selling fairy tale ever written. Ignorance is bliss, you can't force someone to see out of their box if their eyes are covered with false ideals. Saying nothing is better than saying anything. They have a right to fell however they want just like I have a right to have my body modifications.

7. How do you deal with discrimination against your mods? For example, my family and some of my friends are very unaccepting of the few modifications I have, but I try my best to explain to them what modification means to me and get the point across to them. Sometimes I get too upset and just ignore them. How do you handle discrimination?

Let them be, before I had visible tattoos and piercings, I was still an outcast. Anger is just a reaction of not fitting in or being shunned. I just remember I'm not them, I am me, and me is all I have, they don't matter. I live my life and I own it, anyone that feels negatively towards me probably has nothing to do with me and I never have to deal with on a daily basis. As for family, I had to just accept them as them and in turn it stopped me from being upset, some I stopped talking to as a whole. My brother had a huge problem with it, I told him I'm an adult, I am living my life and I am happy, he got it, we understand each other now I think. He realized I grew up and I wasn't his little brother anymore, I was my own man. I realized he was just looking out for me and he just didn't understand that that could make someone happy. if it takes talking to them individually and without being mad just tell them it's ok and you are fine and happy and just ask them to support your happiness, not the tattoos, but you just being you and living life making decisions that make you feel good regardless of how they think you should live. It's not there life and they have to understand that and you still love them no matter what their life decisions are. That will probably change everything.

8. What is your favorite modification(s) that you have?

I am working on a full Body suit. Now that tattoos are on TV and a lot more pople thing they are cool, being heavily tattooed like I am sets me apart from them. I am still different from the excepted.

9. What was your first mod?

Nipple piercings at a 14 gauge with captive bead rings, one with a black ball one with a white ball, I stretched them to a 10 gauge 6 months later and they have been at a 10 ever since.

10. What do you do in your spare time/hobbies? Explain hobbies both related to and unrelated to body modification.

I paint, and draw. I ride my bicycle a lot, its one of my favorite things, I write stand up material but don't perform it. I do crossfit. I love to travel.

11. Did you have any jobs prior to entering the body modification world? Do you hold any other jobs currently in addition to this one?

Before I was a piercer I worked on the railroad as a gandy dancer. I have no other job and refuse to do anything else except work in the piercing industry. It is truly my dream job!

12. How do you think the body modification world and outsiders’ PERCEPTION of the body modification world has changed?

It's on TV now, so they have this idea of all tattoo shops being like TV. Other than that, nothing has really changed, just more people have visible tattoos and people have to be ok with it or it's discrimination. The world is too PC and yes, that is a bad thing. People still hate, just because they aren't open about it doesn't mean they aren't doing it.

13. Fun fact(s) that you want to share about yourself.
I don't think writing anything here gives it justice to how fun I really em, come see me if you'd like to meet me, or email me pinstruckbysarvas@gmail.com

The willingness to do work

2011-01-31T21:20:00.000-08:00

Work has many different meanings. Physical or mental, the practicality of a person, place or thing. Moving towards a goal, traveling from point A to point B, cultivation, influencing, what ever it is, it's work and work is not easy.
There is something that has to be present, an element, a drive, a composition, attitude, heart, a willingness, to sacrifice yourself for it. To put just a little extra out there, in order to get less than nothing back. It's not about giving up a dollar to get five back, it's about trying to squeeze a dime out of two pennies and knowing that is the only way the you can do the job. Without cutting corners, without taking off the top, no cheating involved, work is not dishonest. It's compromise, selflessly giving, pushing, never taking, going going going, still knowing that after completion you still have to do work. The willingness.
The willingness is what I have, and work is what I do. To express who i am, I build, create, till, sow, push, lift, think, feel, comprehend, condense, live. Work and the willingness to do work defines me and explained to people who I am, tha I am willing to expel blood sweat and tears, put it on the line and for what, just to do the task at hand. Not to be put on a pedestal or to be rewarded, validated by anyone else, just for a piece of mind, that I did something positive. That I changed events, that I made someone happy even if I didn't see the smile or hear the laugh, that I am reliable, make a difference, stand out, be an individual. All these things are a positive outcome, but not an instant harvest, the amount put in is greater than the crop, anyone that does work, work as in the meaning of work, knows. I do work, to change how I feel about me, to change the world. The willingness to do work

whats wrong with me

2011-01-22T00:31:00.001-08:00

I just thought how great it would be when my mom dies, that I would not have to worry about her meeting a girlfriend of mine. That I am ashamed of my family that I would rather them dead then to have to introduce them to someone that i care about. Do I subconchously feel this way all the time, or was this just a small burst of hate that i felt about who is in my life and how I keep everyone separate. I don't feel good about this, this has everything to do with why i am solitary most the time.

I love it when 30 year olds say

2011-01-19T23:12:00.001-08:00

No one gets me, I'm so jaded, I'm over it, love isn't real, I'm not addicted. All this really means is, Im afraid that someone might not like me, I'm afraid to get hurt, I'm trying to ignore my feelings, I still live them, I'm not admitting I have problems. Listen, we are all the same, afraid of eachother, afraid of ourselves, afraid of change, scared of growing up and terrified of dying. Why can't
we get what we want, because each of us are too selfish and personally obsessed that we can't see passed our own noses to give a little extra to someone in need without expecting anything in return. A person, who sadly is losing his mind said to me, if it's not adding to you, it's taking away. I understood it without knowing what he meant, tonight I think to me it means, if I have nothing to selflessly give, I am nothing. If I am always subtracting from others, I am adding nothing to the world. I am changing that, this trip was a great idea, and I learned a lot. I haven't left yet, I already miss them!
To Lazer, The Kid, Gizzard and La Brett... You are truly out of your fucking minds, and I felt at home the whole time!

Sarvas

Dream a little dream

2011-01-14T10:12:00.001-08:00

I've been having strange dreams lately. Bloodletting dreams, dreams that I'm bleeding from strange parts if my body, finding blood soaked clothes or caked scabs and clots around a closed wound. Without pain or warning, bleeding for no reason, poring from my skin, unscathed by anything.

Sleep studies theorize that dreams are a way for the mind to process experiences that happened to the individual. Dreams help the brain to refine memories, allowing for us to remember those important events. New memories are stored, old memories refined to smaller clips or forgotten, to make room for new more important things that have happened to you.
I think the blood, scabs and clots represent the old memories. The things I've been holding on to, like tissue holding in blood and creating a bruise. Bad things, baggage, things that I was too angry to let go. The old blood is pouring out, the bad with it. I have excepted the pain a long time ago making the release painless. Those bad memories gone, pouring out the bad blood, the scabs are ready to be washed off and wiped away. The past of hate, anger and fear, ready to be let go and forgotten. A new beginning is now.
Bloodletting

Sarvas

waking up bruised

2011-01-06T21:30:00.000-08:00

it seemed dead today.. but piercings flowed in and went smooth... I still love piercing... I had some cravings.. but I easily crushed them with the fear of how gross it makes me feel thinking about sugar now... I got in a fight with ice today.. wrecked the old bike twice.. on the same side.. my hip and elbow will be bruised... my wrist is a little swollen.. bike is fine... remember.. I can't go fast like I can when it's dry... tomorrow is party night.. I am interested in meeting these people for real.. I need a push.. a har push to be that person I was when I worked out all the time.. I am doing the best myself.. but a little unity helps a person grow stronger

2011.. the new dawn

2011-01-05T16:37:00.000-08:00

I've set myself apart... I've felt like being alone is the best for me.... I am everything I need and no one can hurt me... this is what I've thought for the last few years... I felt I've never fit in... that I have no place... that I can't be loved or have deep relationships with people... I have no home or family... I've tried and tried and tried to connect and failed... I did all this on my own terms.. having terrible expectations on people that I had no control over... I made myself an asshole... no surprise... all the relationships I've had with woman and friends.. short lived... fair weathered... I've moved place to place, searching for something different... I was never impressed.... All I had was me...

But something happened....

I took accountability for my actions... I realized that I did this... I don't have to anymore...

I am working on it now.. working one it... legitimately... I just want to be happy.. I want to be healthy... I want to be wise.. I want to grow old... I've set goals.... It's been 5 days since I've eaten candy or drank soda.... I signed up for the Warrior Dash on Jan 5th.... I'm going back to doing crossfit, and surprisingly have been invited into a tight knit group quickly... 2010 I did a lot of changing and growing up... but this year I build a real foundation.... I am happy right now.. I just see myself getting happier.... I see more growth... maturity.... strength... I feel like myself.. I feel like I'm worth sharing...

this is where is starts
I'm 240 lbs... now it's time to set records and cut down to what I feel is comfortable... right now this is what I look like

this year is time for a change... but it's a change for the better... it's a change that is wanted and understood... it's time to open up... move forward... break free.. To be Alive again!

photo blast

2010-09-10T18:59:00.001-07:00

2010-08-03T23:44:00.001-07:00

It's not luck... It's the will to do better

Sarvas

You were right... About everything.

2010-07-16T15:34:00.001-07:00

I'm sure the sooner you realized that the better you would be, but because you fought it you are now miserable

You better ax somebody... Like me!

New business cards

2010-06-28T21:18:00.001-07:00

I miss having a real classy simple card... To push the limit of what you usually see in the piercing or tattoo industry... Having an image or design is over done... My old card when I worked in salt lake was nice... White front with silver foil.. A simple graphic on the back with my info... I got them done at 4colorprint.com they were $90 for 1000 as far as I remember... Since then I've ordered cards from other places and haven't been that satisfied... Ao I'm going back...

I emailed www.4colorprint.com to get some samples of what other options I have... I got a little booklet of about 30 cards, some stickers and plastic cards they do... I got set on the foil cards, this time gold foil on black... This time I'm going to add a little charm... The "pinstruck by" slogan is coming back, and using spot UV printing it will be the look of a water mark next to my name in gold foil... With the silk card matte card stock not only will it look good, it feels nice on your fingers making people want to hold and read the card longer... I looked into ordering 2000 with the foil, UV, full color back and front with rounded edges will be about $250... Pretty much can't beat that price... Anywhere... www.4colorprint.com is bar far, since I've been in this industry, the beat place to get cards, no matter how simple or fancy...

Here is a pic of my old card

Check the site out 4colorprint.com

Sarvas

I like you even if others don't. I even like most dogs. Thank you for scaring that mean human away

2010-06-24T11:22:00.003-07:00

You bet

You better ax somebody... Like me!

are you as excited as i am for friday?

2010-06-24T11:22:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow is going to be awesome and shit... I wonder what they will play... Stoked.... Ween is sooooo good

You better ax somebody... Like me!

How to do a Surface Anchor

2010-06-20T20:28:00.001-07:00

No really

YouTube Video

Sarvas

Max ipad

2010-06-06T12:22:00.001-07:00

I finally found an iPhone my size... But I couldn't make a phone call or send text at all... This thing is stupid

Sarvas

Murcury was a lame god

2010-05-27T19:36:00.000-07:00

When I was a kid... My dad had a flat wood plate... He put a drop of murcury on it and would stab it with a pin.... It would break up into small little balls and roll away... Once they reached a point they would roll back and collect into a ball... You know... Like the T1000... But the size of a pea... I thought if this today... I had no idea why.... I called my mom and asked her if she remembered that.... I asked her why.... Because you could then... Because we didn't know it could kill you.... Because it was a fun little thing.... Life was simple then... Everything that was dangerous was still found in your house... People were stronger... What the fuck happened

Sarvas

The new Playboy... In 3-D

2010-05-17T14:52:00.001-07:00

This was a huge let down... Only one newd that was 3-D... Here is my reaction

But to simpler minds...

YouTube Video

Sarvas

A mission if you choose to except it

2010-05-13T12:14:00.000-07:00

FISTED

YouTube Video

Sarvas

The beard Goes Down

2010-05-09T12:57:00.001-07:00

I don't even remember this... The Beard does... He has a scab on his forehead to prove it

YouTube Video

Sarvas

What happens in vegas

2010-05-05T00:59:00.001-07:00

You will never know when you are passed the fuck out

Nukka say what

2010-05-02T04:33:00.000-07:00

I packed a bag that weighed in at 50 lbs... It had clothes for a week... Smelly stuff for my pits, razors and other bath stuff... Swim trunks... My C-Pap... A rice cooker... 1lb of rice and instant Indian food to save money... The best part is two 1.75 L bottles of homage bewze we have dubbed "Time Travel Juice" or now I will call it TTJ #1 and TTJ #2... The name says it all... I was worried it wouldn't get through and on the plane with me to Vegas... Thought it was too heavy... Nope... I even told them what was in it... Guy grabbed it.. Exrayed it and pushed it through... Bam... As far as I know it will meet me in Vegas... And the party will be complete... I'll post a Vlog a day... Hope you enjoy!

Edit: luggage was not lost.. TTJ is in Vegas

Sarvas

formspring.me

2010-04-30T22:30:00.001-07:00

Entertain me with a question... . http://formspring.me/Sarvas

It's been a sec

2010-04-28T11:56:00.001-07:00

Fuckin photo blast

Sarvas

Did you know I made videos

2010-04-24T11:25:00.000-07:00

Check it out
http://www.youtube.com/user/PinstruckBySarvas

Sarvas

If you were really in trouble, who would you go to for advice?

2010-04-22T11:55:00.001-07:00

I have a few people... And I try and talk to them on a regular basis... Not just when I need help... I think it's better to work on those relationships at all times and not when you need something

Open, like a book...

Why do so many people hate you?

2010-04-21T00:49:00.001-07:00

They are jealous of me... They don't understand why I do whatever the fuck I want and they can't.... Those people hate me because they don't understand me... It's like a cave man trying to kill a snake because they are scared... Scared that they will live a mediocre life and I will be brutaly awesome

Open, like a book...

F U Puerto Rico I'm Mesikan

2010-04-19T10:08:00.001-07:00

Oh... The CTA is most amazing at 11am... Here I encounter a loud drunk dood drinking a 40oz of bud out of a GAP bag....

No big woop... Until a guy calls him out and this happens

Sarvas

My OWLE bubo

2010-04-14T12:39:00.001-07:00

Sarvas

Woodland Creatures

2010-04-07T10:39:00.001-07:00

The video might not be the best ( fuckin no zoom on an iPhone) but if you have a good eye you can see what I'm checking out...

Sarvas

And this is my update

2010-03-29T23:17:00.001-07:00

Not to seem selfish.... But how can anyone not think the world is revolved around them... How can I be so far away and detached from someone... Someone that I haven't talked to in years... That I was almost step brothers with... Be thrown into thoughts again... Him living in Washington... Me in Illinois... Ad while i'm in minneapolis... I see a video of his that was once on a forum but since been deleted... Only his voice... And this person I met today... I recognize his mannerisms... People really don't change much after 18... I just want to say hi and be like... This is weird... Something is up.. We should talk... Or I should get over it...

A video for IAM

2010-03-12T17:36:00.001-08:00

Taken 3/12/10 5:47pm central time

Swateydo

Neck Hula-hoopin

2010-02-27T22:06:00.000-08:00

Swateydo

formspring.me

2010-02-24T17:14:00.001-08:00

Open, like a book... http://formspring.me/Sarvas

Oh fuck it

2010-02-19T13:27:00.001-08:00

Photo blast

Im not posting what any of these things are... Im just posting them... Sorry for not posting... It's not like life is boring.. It's just that I'm laying sooo low that I have nothing to post.. Some trips planned and some fun soon

Swateydo

formspring.me

2010-01-31T09:54:00.001-08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/Sarvas

formspring.me

2010-01-27T16:09:00.001-08:00

Ask Jesus anything http://formspring.me/JesusHChrist

photo blast

2010-01-24T14:44:00.001-08:00

there is a pic of two cats fuckin in the middle of a road... a crazy party... and a guy that looks like captain kangaroo

formspring.me

2010-01-24T12:38:00.001-08:00

After investing $60 in lapdances and $30-40 at the rack from a particularly attractive stripper, you return home and jump onto your social website of choice and find her profile. Is it inappropriate to add/request said performer to your activity stream?

depends... did you cum during said lap dance... if so then no... but if you didn't even get a boner then it's cool.. you can become her best friend and take her and her kid out shopping because basically you paid for his happy meals for the week

Ask me anything

formspring.me

2010-01-23T15:33:00.001-08:00

How do you feel about piercing pussies?

It's my job.. I don't feel any different then piercing penis's or noses... it's all the same... some piercings are more challenging than others so when that happens I get stoked... I had to do an industrial the other day and I had to curve the barbell so that it would some out the conch but miss a previous industrial and rook piercing... it was awesome...

Ask me anything

Week on done

2010-01-20T21:27:00.001-08:00

This is getting interesting

Swateydo

formspring.me

2010-01-20T20:50:00.001-08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/Sarvas

formspring.me

2010-01-16T08:32:00.001-08:00

Where did you come up with stirring the guts?

well first I should let the readers know what "Stirring Guts" is... it's when you're inside a girl and you violently masturbate in her.... not to cum.. but to stimulate fast movement.. faster than what you can normally do... I thought of this when I was too tired to really so some "hard fuckin" but didn't want to stop... I just had to name it something... because it was a success and has been ever since...

Ask me anything

If there was a reason to kill myself

2010-01-13T23:58:00.000-08:00

I have a reason now.. Here.. Drink this

Ended up at a gay bar.. and other things

2010-01-10T12:23:00.000-08:00

Photo Blast

these are the pillars that let you know that you are in the gayborhood... "Boys Town" is what they call it here... those a the most phallic things in the city with rainbow ribs... for your pleasure on them...

then I saw a drag show... that is a disco ball suit... yeah.. fuckin weird huh...

here is a painting of a hot dog I did for a friend...

A nice stay at home

2010-01-08T08:07:00.001-08:00

Last night I bought a couple 22 ozers of hard cidar and some fixins for dinner... I love winter time when it comes to asperagass.. It's always so long and skinny.. Not all thick and stringy like it is in the summer.. I can eat it everyday.. It's just my pee stinks.. While I was at the store I found some awesome things... Boxed wine..

a dozen eggs... I don't know why.. But this made me sick.. Ok I know why.. So do you...

Then i got some glass jars to put some gross things in.. Like this pug eyeball..

Then i ate..

Thanks for dropping by

S.O.G.G.

Snow and snow

2010-01-07T13:11:00.001-08:00

There is a storm warning in affect till tomorrow morning.. 12in of snow... Oh well.. I still walk.. I went to Cabellas last night

Then i walked to some bar that wouldnt take my ID cuz it was cracked.. What a fag... But I walked through this..

And saw this.. It made no sence...

People are creepy.. What the fuck is that.. I took photo boof pics with my friends.. When i scan em ill post em
S.O.G.G.

formspring.me

2010-01-07T11:08:00.001-08:00

Do you suck alot of dick cuz you look like a giant faggot.

look at the other question about sucking dicks... and does it turn you on that I look like a giant faggot... or does it intimidate you... p.s. you are cute

Ask me anything

formspring.me

2010-01-07T11:07:00.001-08:00

If you could sleep with any woman you have ever met, who would it be?

That's a weird question... I've met a lot of woman... I think this question is loaded... so I'll answer it like a dood... all of them... except the ugly ones... maybe some fat ones when I'm drunk.. I just won't tell my friends... I probably won't have sex with anyone married cuz I'm no home wrecker... next time you ask a question.. be more specific...

Ask me anything

How to get away with sleeping at work

2010-01-05T22:59:00.001-08:00

If someone tries to take a pic of you sleeping at work.. Make a splint so that it looks like youbare givin them the bird.. So in the pic.. You are just flipping then off with your eyes shut..

Or you just end up looking like you are sleeping.. Like this guy... But he was really sleepin on the job

S.O.G.G.

formspring.me

2010-01-03T17:35:00.001-08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/Sarvas

some new shit... still not slacking..

2010-01-03T17:06:00.001-08:00

http://www.formspring.me/Sarvas this is all you need for now

I didn't forget

2009-12-30T01:33:00.000-08:00

Just a lot of shot going on.. You know.. Hollidays and what not.. I'll post tomorrow.. Like a real live post.. Don't worry.. I won't leave this post without a pic..

S.O.G.G.

I can also be found here

2009-12-26T17:05:00.000-08:00

http://www.youlookridiculous.blogspot.com/ an interview at the Todd Blog

Livin the lush life

2009-12-21T10:20:00.001-08:00

This is what happens when you let a man like child in your tub with all your lush products...

Chocolate cupcake face mask... This picture is racist

Bubble beard...
S.O.G.G.

Location:W Belmont Ave,Chicago,United States

I know how to blog... The simple steps to not be boring

2009-12-19T03:21:00.001-08:00

Number one... Don't write about your personal life... Seriously... No one cares.. Oh.. And you suck

#b post pics.. Stop writing.. Fuckin post pics.. Don't post pics of things you hate.. Like cargo shorts... Post pics of you making an ass out of yourself and pics of things that suck around you then talk shit on those things... Well mostly ugly people or scenester faggots (not the gay kind)

#% post newdz... Everyone loves sex even if it's gross sex.. You've banged an ugly guy.. Admit it.. It felt good when it first went in and you were impressed how fast you made him cum... Or you fucked a way fat girl and you were stoked how many times "she came" you know.. It was like a hundred times...

So. Yeah... Learn how to blog.. And P fukin esss don't spell check it's for teachers and uptight women who want to fuck their dads... So pretty much just teachers (male teachers are actually woman that want to fuck their dads)

S.O.G.G.

Location:W Oakdale Ave,Chicago,United States

Being a lab rat

2009-12-17T12:13:00.001-08:00

I singed up to be selected for a human testing of MDMA... I hope I get picked.. It seems so retarded.. To sit in a lab.. Be moniteres by a scientist... Watch a movie or whatever and take a pure drug... Count me in.. Crazy drug in a safe place.. Yeah man..

S.O.G.G.

I just want to go home

2009-12-15T20:54:00.001-08:00

When you are at a bar and their special is $3.50 you call.. You get a bit loose.. It's even a lil more wylde when it's just you and a couple friends.. The place is empty and you got control of the juke box... The bathroom has terrible graffiti and a huge mirror this is what happens

But when its said and done.. And you are almost falling asleep on the train... And the bus stops going to your house after 2am and you didnt know it.. You get pretty bummed out.. Even when you just find a lonely dead rat in the street you think thats how you end up

BuT you make it home... Finally with a light for a head

I woke up hung over and confused.. I saw your boyfriend get off the bus at the same stop I did..

And the worst camel toe ever.. It looks like a front butt... Zoom in... She could feel that she had it cuz she kept trying to pull her shirt down.. Poor girl.. I bet she was chaffed...

S.O.G.G.

Not that life is boring

2009-12-13T12:22:00.000-08:00

I have just been lazy... lazy in a good way... just taking a break and going with the flow... taking pics.. going out... avoiding the cold while still having fun.... so... I went to a burlesque show that didn't really gross me out due to fatness...

there was a girl reppin chanika but she danced to a spanish song and looked like frida without the uni brow...
I took all these pics to post but I forgot why... the fact is .... I partied... it's warmer than it should be... and I'm happy... this is a pretty good December so far... I want it to be the new year and a new beginning but with this attitude please... thanks... now more pics

the night was killed

2009-12-09T21:27:00.000-08:00

we had a great November... no snow... the second week in Dec we get some... not a big deal... but now everyones ass is puckered and no one wants to go out... too cold... too much snow...
I don't get it... when you are inside in a bar it's not cold... and....... IT'S FUCKIN DECEMBER IN CHICACO... you should no better... it's not your first rodeo... well or you got soft... I mean... this summer sucked as far as I know... was rainy... didn't get super nice... so what's the big deal... really... what is it... fine... I'll just eat McDonalds and go to sleep

I have a matching tattoo because I'm a faggot

2009-12-09T00:09:00.000-08:00

I heard someone say that... Maybe they are.. I mean I'm not one to judge... Fantastic Mr. Fox gets a fist in the air (you'll get it when you see it)... And the bus ride in the city today was actually ok... No weirdos no one being gross.. Just good ol fashioned public transport... I'm starting to do yoga again. Feels good.. Winter is looking up.. Oh.. Sleet.. Fuck you..

S.O.G.G.

Pic blast

2009-12-07T16:31:00.001-08:00

S.O.G.G.

Location:W Belmont Ave,Chicago,United States

Holy fuck

2009-12-05T12:41:00.001-08:00

I'm sitting at the golden arches right.. And next to me are these old burn outs... The woman is telling the guy.. Who doesn't say a word the whole time really.. That he is such a great artist she thinks he can be a tattooer... Actual quotes "they do rembrants and stuff now.. It's not like when you were younger tattoos are expensive now" "you learn under someone that is licenced for two years then you can do it on your own" what the fuck... Is this really what it has come to... Really.. Get the fuck out...

S.O.G.G.

Oh how funny

2009-12-04T00:55:00.001-08:00

So I went to a convention last year in Philly and hung out.. I got to see my friends and go crazy all night with them.. 3 days of nuts.. Well there is an old post about it... But... I don't think I posted about seeing a girl piss on an other girl in a crowded hotel bathroom... There was no video.. Well until now... I saw it today.. And it was filmed directly behind me.. Sobthe whole time you see me watching... Standing there... Eating pizza... Yeah.. That's what I call entertainment... Sorry can't post the vid... But for tose of you who were there.. Know how retarded it was

S.O.G.G.

I actually didn't feel lie posting

2009-12-02T23:03:00.001-08:00

Nothing that interesting has been going on... I mean I played SMB wii and it rules... I painted an other set of water colors.. I rode my bike in the rain... But nothing amazing... It's not that I'm boring... It's just winter time...

This is beatdown sleeping
S.O.G.G.

It's a tuesday night

2009-12-01T22:10:00.001-08:00

At ians again.. Beef stroganoff pizza and chicken mash potatos and bacon pizza

Now at home drinking jameson and ginger.. A new flavor that i love...

I painted the other day but forgot to poat it.. This was for kristen... Its me from the wine night... But as a rock n roll snail...

Here is something else...

It says you listen to jam bands you lose... Which is very true... You know... It's your life... I don't have to live with you
S.O.G.G.

Lap Top iPhone combo post

2009-11-30T13:00:00.000-08:00

I usually just post from my iphone... but I have a chance to really type so I'm going to... then blast pics from the ol iphone.... I realized that when I post from the iPhone it doesn't tag or label the post... which is a bummer... because I want more people to read this... so if you haven't yet... follow my blog bitches.... so anyway... please check out an other blog... www.guesshermuff.blogspot.com for sheer hilarity... serious it is out of control funny.... it's gross and awesome at the same time... really.. I think I saw my friends mom on there... #2 Chicago wake up and check out www.ianspizza.com this weeks special is an Italian beef sandwich pizza... sounds amazing... last night I at the mac n cheese with bacon pizza... the buffalo chicken pizza finished with blue cheese... and the smokey and the bandit... I want to try the chicken mash potato pizza and the smores pizza... yeah... fuck you if you think it's gross.,.. go vegan if you don't like good food....
So I no longer have a car... that means PICS FROM THE CTA (coming soon) oh man... and I hope there is some craigslist miss connections about me too... not having a car I'm sure will change my life here... I think it will be good for me... maybe I can shed some of this pizza weight that I gained... plus it's winter... I'll be in doors and I'm sure forced to stay in more.. which will be good on my pocket book and make me want to do some home workouts from "solitary fitness" by Charlie Bronson.... I need to look good for summer... already... hahaha
So the other pics that I am posting are from Friday night... I met some girl that was with her brother and sister... I cock blocked her because she kept trying to cock block her little brother... shit was funny... she was trying to sexy dance on her brother... I was like.. you can't sexy dance on your brother... that's weird... anyway.. frog and I tore it up like usual... but like I said before... the band sucked... I mean during a break one of the doods fell asleep... well.. that's all I got... follow me please
love
Sarvas

I might skip out on fun tonight

2009-11-28T21:03:00.001-08:00

I had too much last night.. I mean there was a lady in a wheele chair sleeping in a Mexican joint with a giant white stuffed tiger... Then when lady gaga came on.. She woke up and changed it

S.O.G.G.

Monpubis

2009-11-27T01:19:00.001-08:00

Today ruled.. Here is some pics to prove it.. I don't need to explain

S.O.G.G.

What a fake mustache can do to me

2009-11-25T23:25:00.001-08:00

S.O.G.G.

Weed talk

2009-11-25T00:32:00.000-08:00

I don't really smoke weed.. I use to.. But got over it.. I'm too social.. Weed isn't the type of high you can have around a lot of people and maintain a good conversation or an active fun time... I mean the people that say they can end up weed talking.. If you aren't high with them weed talk is the worst.. Weed talk is line goes along these bounds
#1. a life lesson that you've discovered...
#B. Un understanding of reality
#%. No point is ever really made.. Just the phrase "you know what I'm saying man?"

No... No one ever gets a person when they are high... Because they are high... Even if I was high I still don't get it... I remeber the first time I got it was after I stopped smoking weed and watched revenge of the nerds II and they get high on the beach... Weed fuckin talk... Dog is God spelled backwords...

It's a simple life.. But it's me

What would you do with a time machine

2009-11-24T00:26:00.001-08:00

Well in back to the future 2 they go to 2015... During that time they had cars that flew and huver skateboards.. It's less than ten years away and I haven't seen a lick of any of that cool shit.. Fuck you people.. Get on the ball.. I can tell you the future... There will be a world war soon... Our economy is too fucked and that's how we make money.. We kill... Either that or there will just be the rich and the poor and the poor will be slaves.. The end.. I just want a huver skateboard... Oh and Brandon sucks wangs

It's a simple life.. But it's me

Sometimes i draw

2009-11-22T23:33:00.001-08:00

This is mr snail.. He parties

Till he pukes too

It's a simple life.. But it's me

No matter what anyone says

2009-11-22T00:42:00.001-08:00

I think Mihn is the best.. He humors me in times wheni need it.. I wish Mike Dalton came out and drank with us tonight... He really brings the party

It's a simple life.. But it's me

Wino forever

2009-11-21T11:00:00.000-08:00

I would have posted this earlier but I can't stop laughing... Last night I went to an art show with a few goals set.. A get wasted on free booze.. #2 hope that someone puts me on missed connections... Now the deal is is that I don't fit in at an art show... and this one was full of bike dorks... So like usual I was a sore thumb... The bad thing was that the beer was too foamy to wait for... So I drank wine... Wine in a fucking plastic cup... I was suppose to dress to impress and I didn't care to impress anyone... I mean look what I was up against

The place smelled like a litter box from all the dirty bike kids... And i was getting wasted.. Fast... And so were my friends

Kristen likes a wine drunk

Brandon mixed and matched... Now the wine made everything seem slow but super silly.. I was giggling like fuck at everything... Brandon and i went downstairs to explore and took some drinks of a liquore that didn't help matters

The best painting there.. It says "cant swim" its stupid now.. But i loved it...

This was the only real cool part but it was short lived... We had to get more white wine

And she didn't even notice... I kept laughing because Kristen was trying to zip it up without her knowing...

I stole an ice pick... Spilled wine all over myself

These guys tried to sale me satanic propaganda

I went and pissed outside and this guy kept dancing by me and tried to look at my peen

The party raged on... Then something inside me had enough...

And on the way home.. After running outside and laying by the car text messaging my friends that i was by their car.. But the text came out like this (actual text) Z I'm out at your cAr.... Laulyin next to ultou car..... Ll be by your car.... I don't remember getting in the car but when i woke up i remembered i puked... And i really did...

Poor lil guy... Wine drunk is bad news... I never thought being a cartoon character could be so fun but turn out so bad... Thanks for the night guys.. It foes down in the books as the best mistake....
It's a simple life.. But it's me

Today.. Tired.. Give up the fight

2009-11-19T22:43:00.001-08:00

I like sleep a lot.. But only If it feels like it's constant... When I nap it's not.. And then I'm still just tired... The problem is I get super sleepy when I read.. And I got this new book... And I read a bit then fall asleep.. Wake up cuz I stop breathing then fall back to sleep.. Making me drowsy... Then I don't want to go out or do anything.. It's like when you were a kid and fell asleep before your mom got home... Then everyone eats and you wake up to an empty house because everyone left and you have a warm plate of food and you are confused to where everyone is... So you wonder around the house lookig in all the rooms crying.. Where is everyone... Why didn't they wake me up... Am I going to be alone forever... Tears down the face.. Well it's like that.. But I don't cry.. I just think about takig a sleeping pill and going back to sleep.. What's a guy to do...

It's a simple life.. But it's me

To understand death you must challege it

2009-11-19T00:28:00.001-08:00

I mean really.. Sky diving.. Bungey jumping.. Driving drunk.. Mixing drugs.. Unprotected sex.. Bar fights... smoking... Fuck just walking down the street can get you killed... But we still do it.. Why... Cuz we want to die... No way we are all scared of the enevitable.. But really.. Life would be boring if we just waited for the end instead of testing those waters... I mean I drank three beers.. A shot of whiskey and just took a sleeping pill.. If that's not redlining it I don't know what is... But then again.. I don't speedball... I like girls

It's a simple life.. But it's me

You will never get what I do.. Cuz you don't ask the right questions

2009-11-18T01:35:00.001-08:00

It's a simple life.. But it's me

Life lesson for everyone

2009-11-16T23:28:00.001-08:00

Things aren't really that cool if you just get it right away.. Instant gratification is good for two seconds then the novelty wears off.. Work for something for once.. You'll appreciate the end result.. I'll put money on it

It's a simple life.. But it's me

When I do... I do damage

2009-11-14T22:16:00.001-08:00

The midget cat....

Stupid hipster house party.. They are sarounding a greyhound petting it because they are to lame to party

Me trying to drink the hipsters beer before i go out

A hooker getting picked up

The seperation of booze berries

New hand tat
It's a simple life.. But it's me

I made cordule

2009-11-12T21:33:00.000-08:00

Won't be done for two months.. But it'll be good... Blueberry blackberry Raspberry and Ginger... Stoked

It's a simple life.. But it's me

No really

2009-11-12T01:14:00.001-08:00

I am so freaked out right now. i've never been so insulted and have been attacked in me life.. Holy fuck

It's a simple life.. But it's me

Today is just pictures

2009-11-11T00:25:00.001-08:00

It's a simple life.. But it's meq

Efffffffff

2009-11-10T01:30:00.001-08:00

I Have a tooth ache... It's bad... I'll have to get it removed I know it.... But today kicked ass because of this...

Double monroes... She called them angel bites.. Ha... After work i clean a little and made one of these

Im way into it... Minus the pain... I hope i can afford this toothe out
It's a simple life.. But it's me

Live band karaoke

2009-11-09T01:44:00.001-08:00

I was at carrols pub and a live country band was playing..... I told them I could sing David Allen coe's "you never called me by my name" and they let me sing it with them... They loved it... Only my friends were there... But worth it... I need to be on a country cover band

It's a simple life.. But it's me

The beginning of bad

2009-11-08T01:45:00.001-08:00

I think the fall season really fucks people.. It makes them realize if they don't have someone.. There is going to be some serious alone time.. Fall slows things down to the winter stop.. The death and darkness of cold.. It makes alone so much more brutal... People grasp on to anything just to have something more than themselves... Well not me.. Winter is cold... And I would rather have a legit foundation and not just a warm fling when feeling cold...
People don't understand that alone time is the best to get stuff done... Focus on the task at hand... If you have personal problems that need to be addressed.. Shit that is stopping you from doing anything.. Alone time helps you fix it... Move forward.. Clean up some of that baggage... This winter.. I will be setting my life of for my future.. It's time to learn better habbits.. And survive what is being dished out... I have spirals and cheese to eat now...

It's a simple life.. But it's me

I don't even know what to say

2009-11-07T02:28:00.001-08:00

Or maybe I'm too drunk to text.. But my friend mihn came out.. He's a woman hater.. And it seems his true colors came out as well.. He called some one that was non white a portch monkey and then asked a fat girl if she was pregnant.. She just replied as saying " nope I'm just fat!" HF really. guess who mihn is

It's a simple life.. But it's me

Here's a tip for yall

2009-11-05T23:06:00.001-08:00

Booze is a depresent.. Nothing wrong with that.. But I've been drinking a bit tonight.. And.. I think that the way I treat people is a little rough.. I mean I'm not a bad guy at all.. It's just how I value them.. It's just weird.. I'm not going to stop.. But I feel sorry for people that don't have any worth to anything or anyone.. You know... Like juggalos.. Here's a random photo thatvi will post from who knows when... Go!

Gremlins and shit

2009-11-05T01:11:00.001-08:00

My friend has these black cats... Imposible to take pics of.. But they are midgets.. I did the best I could with my iPhone.. But they are nuts... Stubby legs and tails and erything

It's a simple life.. But it's me

This happened a bit ago

2009-11-03T23:50:00.000-08:00

It's a simple life.. But it's me

Station

2009-11-03T00:00:00.001-08:00

Totally watching bill and teds bogus journey... Halloween was rad... I need to actually make a rad costume next year.. For real... Things are looking up... I'm going to post some vids of stuff tomorrow after I get tattooed.. It's hard to update this blog when I post so much on facebook... I wish I had a point to this.. I think I just dump nonsence on here knowing full well no one reads it.. But whatever... Here are some pics...

Day off Friday

2009-10-31T00:35:00.001-07:00

It rained all day till around six.. some places flooded.. Set a sad mood for the day.. At at arounds ten and fell asleep.. Woke up at 130... Tomorrow is halloween.. We'll see if I dress up...

It's a simple life.. But it's me

North Side

2009-10-29T22:22:00.001-07:00

I'm in a neighborhood I rarely go to... North side Chicago... It's good here.. Drink socially not drink to party... I am sick of the same party and the same people... The tat bros and the cool guys.. 5 years ago having this many tattoos wasn't cool.. and what you have now is just a warp tour body suit... You know just hands chest and throat.. Fuck off... Most those kids are pussies and get those tattoos to act hard.. Fake it till you make it kids... Us old doods know better.. And I'm not even that old... This is some real shit

Represent
It's a simple life.. But it's me

The next step...

2009-10-28T20:52:00.001-07:00

Someone gave me an idea to write a new blog.. I know I barely write this one.. But the other one would make more sence... Any way I'm looking into it.. Not sure yet... Today nothing happened.. Too tired to enjoy a beer.. Going to pass out soon.. My eyes won't stay open... Look what I found at army navy.. Go team.... Hahaha..

It's a simple life.. But it's me

 On my days off

2009-10-28T01:07:00.001-07:00

All I do is sleep.. I can't help it... It's weird.. And when it's cold like it is I just want to stay inside... And that means stay in bed... The way things are I think I'm going to apply for food stamps.. Lame I know.. But shit isn't getting better... I do cook a lot now.. And have been eating at home more.. Not going out and drinking beer at home... But still I need to pay bills before shot gets real bad.. And I should sale some shit.. I'll attack craigslist tomorrow

It's a simple life.. But it's me

For a Monday

2009-10-27T00:59:00.001-07:00

Ita funny how when irrated you talk shit under your breath... When you are pushed into a corner your teeth show... And when you know that people are all talk it seems easier to strike... I am learning how to water color... I suck at it.. But I'm trying... In the last two days business has doubled this week than it has all month... Fucks me up a bit.. Money hasn't been tight for a while... I am learning how to live.. It's a middle line of happy for growth but sad for no freedom... No money means you can't even get a beer at a local bar... But you can drink a 6 at home for the same price... There really is no point to this except that I'm trying to post everyday because I have an app on my iPhone so I have no excuse.. The end

New shit to try out

2009-10-26T01:33:00.000-07:00

I'm going to start updating from my phone.. See if this works

S.O.G.G.

mega fail day 5

2009-07-17T23:07:00.000-07:00

so.. day five was so hard and so bad... I didn't leave my bed till 4 and then went to work.. was hungry the whole day and didn't have shit for energy.. so I gave up and ate.. the cleans is a bad news if you push yourself.. i think that this is something you do when you chill... not exercise at all... just cleans... maybe do yoga and meditate.. but I couldn't even lift my bike today... I can't live with no energy and I ate.. so what.. 5 days